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May 31 What a weekI knew this week would be strange because it was short but I had no idea what it was really going to be like.
 It all started with Tuesday. I made a run to Goodyear because I knew something was wrong with my front driver's tire. Yeah, the coils were apparently coming through the rubber so I needed a new tire. And as everyone knows, you get tires in pairs for easier driving. Well, my tires are about $200 a pop. I couldn't afford $400 a few days before payday. (I hate being poor.) I got one and said I'd be back after Friday. (I plan to go back Monday.) But guess what?! I really need 4 tires so that just means I'll go back sometime by the end of the month. I could do the remaining 3 now but I don't want to hold my breath that nothing else happens between now and July. I like to have a bit of a safety net if possible. I attempted selling some cels but the prices are in the gutter so that didn't really work. Oh well, eventually I'll make my million and not be poor anymore.
 On to Wednesday and straight into a meeting about my future. I knew it was coming and I was dreading it. I always dread those kind of meetings at work because I have to lie. They force me to lie. I hate lying. Don't get me wrong. I love my job but my real future plans have nothing to do with that. I got the "where will you be in 5 years" question. OMG, I apparently rattled off a good answer because my boss wound up talking to me about it and everyone else I work for/with the rest of the week.
 But it was a lie. Where do I really see myself in 5 years? Rich, married with a child and 2 dogs living near the beach with a swimming pool in my backyard and a boat at my beck and call for when I want to go visit my brother. I have a rich fanasty life.  This is not something however you can tell your boss. My former boss has inadvertly started me down the path though. I'm working on something with the Discovery Channel and Hasbro. It's awesome to be involved no matter how small a role I may be playing. But I'm jumping to Thursday.So on to Thursday we go.
 This is when I found out about the exciting new adventure. Of course, it must be completed with my normal load of work, which has now doubled because in the 24 hours since having my "one on one" with my boss, she has begun coming up with deadlines for me to meet so I can acheive my future goals. What the hell did I say again? The first deadline is June 20th. Well, I guess it's really June 19th since June 20th is too late. So after consulting my former boss, I have a new deadline of June 12th. I'm taking a mini vacation the following week. Oh joy! I needed my deadline upped. This is also when I found out the project I've been working on is going into it's first stage in July. I had to show my progress. Everyone seems happy about it but can I up my quota from 6 to 10 per week? Uh, sure. I don't need to go to the bathroom or get a drink or anything during my 8 hours. Seriously, give me all the equipment at home and I'll bust it out in no time flat. Yeah, but they won't do that.  Friday rolls around and I find myself back in my doctor's office getting 30+ poison shots again. It's not really poison. It's some kind of medicine but I like calling it poison. It makes me very cold and tired for around 24 hours afterwards. Most people suffer from flu-like symptoms for up to 48 hours afterwards so at least I can be thankful for not feeling that way. Of course, my leg kills me for at least 2 days after as well. Bruises are everywhere. It'll all be awesome when it's over. I just have to wait until then. But off to work I go like the little trooper I am and smack into my old friend. Eh, it didn't really bother me because I saw her long before she saw me. It just cracked me up how she still acts around me. The mutal person she was talking to and I needed to talk to was darting her eyes back and forth like a war was going to break out right in front of her. I almost started laughing but that quickly went sour by the time I returned to my desk. I learned a friend of mine had died this week. His twin brother will not go into details as to how or even exactly when. I believe his quote is "He's dead so just let him rest in peace." I can understand him being upset but he's not the only one. Maybe later on he'll let us know what happened because friends need to heal too.
So now next week scares me. It's starting with Goodyear and ending with a doctor's visit. I hope the inbetween aren't as crazy or difficult. I know there will be a lot of financial happenings during the week. Our stock is doing some weird changes so everyone who owns any has some serious desicions to make in the next month. I think I know what I'm going to do but first I must have a meeting with a certain someone who has never steered me wrong and will always side with me. But first, I'm going back to my comfort food game - Jak 2.  May 24 NostalgicI hate days when I feel nostalgic. I don't have a problem remembering things but there are some things best left in the past. All day I feel like I've been dwelling in the past.
 It all actually started Friday night. I was chatting with my friend Tony. We were talking the typical talk of anime, games, you know, stuff. He was asking me how I was feeling since I'm still going through some rather painful procedures on my leg. And I told him the truth - tired. Somehow that launched into my highschool reunion later this summer. I started telling him how I don't want to go but I promised my best friend from that high school that I would go if she wanted to go. (I'm really hoping that she doesn't want to go.) Tony was saying how I should go because how often do you ever get to reunite with people from your past. He even asked me if I'd been to any reunions before this one. I had and it seriously makes me not want to go to this one. When pressed, I simply stated, "Because a guy and I made a pact to meet up at that reunion and he didn't show. I was heartbroken and cursing his name all night. Well, that is until I was told he was killed in a car accident several years earlier so I guess he had a good excuse."
That of course launched the discussion of young people dying and getting diseases. Yeah, we had a great talk that night.
 I even told him how a guy I dated in college had a stroke at age 21. I cursed him too because he stood me up and didn't return my phone calls. Six months later when I ran into him, I was so cold. He literally had to grab my arm to get me to stop to talk to him. I was such a horrible person back then. But why would my mind go there? Young people don't get strokes.So after very little sleep, I got up to go face my dog's mortality at the vet. It was just a regular checkup but we started talking about future plans for when it becomes his time. He's 14 with a heart condition so every day is precious. We got home and I became completely bummed. I guess I can't blame myself. It had been a rather trying 12 hours.
Perfect idea! I'll get lost in an anime I'm currently addicted to, Nana. Even though I didn't feel like watching anime, I forced myself to. I didn't actually feel like doing anything. I started to enjoy the episodes but they are a drama so some were harder to watch than others. After watching 10, yes 10 episodes, I forced myself to take a break. I laid down on my bed with my senior yearbook. Worst mistake ever! The final pages are in rememberance of two girls who died that year. I didn't know one but I said goodbye to the other one about an hour before she died. At least I can say I said goodbye.
I'm really hoping I get a good night sleep tonight and shake myself out of this nostalgia. I hate it! It's making me feel like I didn't have any fun as a youth. I did! But when I get like this, I only see the bad things. This has locked in my decision of I don't want to go to my reunion. But because I try to be a good friend, I won't break my promise. If my friend wants to go, I'll be there with a smile on but probably crying inside. April 21 Promises PromisesI swear I'll write something interesting soon. I've been extremely swamped lately. And in those spare minutes I have, I just . . . Wait a minute! I don't have any spare minutes.
 Actually, I've been tired a lot lately. Right now, I'm blaming my medication and recovery from my leg surgery. It was a necessary evil. One that I'm happy I'm finally doing. There's just that part of me wishing I'd done it 5 years ago when I was told to. Maybe I would have had more energy. Nah! I just wouldn't be swamped with everything else at that time.
I really want to get back into my life again. I love gaming and anime but I really haven't done much of either recently. I've been too tired to read subtitles and the lack of focus affects gaming too. And then when I have the spare time, I have an online friend "needing" attention. He's really sweet but I have to face reality now. The honeymoon is over. I enjoy playing the online game that we play together but I can't commit to playing every weekend night. I want to do other things. I want variety in my schedule. I'm someone who hates schedules and wants to just go with the flow. My style is being totally cramped. So this Sunday I was bad . . . kind of. I was playing online with my friend. He was in a foul mood carried over from the night before. I heard all about it and tried to cheer him up by saying "let's go kill some stuff". Well, it seemed to cheer him up but then again I could tell he still wasn't himself. I wanted offline. He so wasn't playing like his normal self.
The next night I hop online to play because it's his birthday. I can't skip out on this night. It turns out the following night was his birthday - long story. Well, since I'm there, I might as well play. The foul mood was pissing me off though. My partner was running all over the place forgetting he had a partner basically. I got mad the night before at some kid who was 5 levels lower than they should be in a zone where I was leveled correctly and having a hard enough time surviving. The kid gets kills because he was too low but my partner revives him. And the kid continued to follow us - stealing my kills, reaping benefits from our work, etc. I'd had enough. I said when he dies leave him alone. That way he wouldn't be following us around. I get scalded at for being mean. WTF?! We wound up dying ourselves. When we are sent back to heal, we lost the kid for good. I was happy about that.
So now I'm still angry about that the next night. But this night is different because I have bad weather and am having a hard time staying online to play. My guess is the weather was interferring with my cable. It happens. I turned on the tv to find out what was going on when the EAS screamed across my screen. There was a tornado warning in my area. Perfect! I used that as my excuse to hop offline. It wasn't for my county. It was a neighboring one but I still needed to be watchful. I felt a little bad for doing it but I love finishing Zombie Loan. I loved doing something different. And I loved not hanging out with someone who was angry.
I wound up making a promise to myself that I'll share online. I promise I won't allow myself to get in a rut like that again. I promise to not hop online to play a game because someone else wants me to but I don't feel like it. I promise to complete some things I've been meaning to do to make me feel better and not because someone is waiting or wanting me to. I promise that I am going to come first because that's what I need.
Sometimes guys can bring out the traits I hate most in myself. Other times they don't. I need to hang with more of them that don't.  March 22 A little behindBut I'm getting there.
I've sort of neglected this site lately. Well, I've sort of neglected all of my sites lately. I've been extremely busy at work so I'm rarely in front of my computer at home unless it's to check on work or other business related items. I totally need some down time. I've neglected most of my games and books because I've been so exhausted. Not exhausted because I don't have enough iron in my diet. Exhausted in that I worked so much at work I can't focus my eyes and I've been doing my stretching exercises so I'm physically tired too.  However, there's good news! In one week, I'm on vacation. Of course, that just means more running around because when do I ever get to just chill on vacation? It's the fun kind of running around though. I'm going to get to go to museums and exhibits I've been wanting to go to for a while but haven't. My parents are coming into town so I get to chauffer them around. Well, that is until the day of my surgery when they'll be doing the driving. But since I'll be doing all the sitting and laying around then I might have some time to read and play handheld games.
 We'll see.Somehow though, I have done a little. I just finished volume 7 of Fushigi Yuugi Genbu. OMG! Probably the best volume yet!
 I'm not even into the fighting scenes but . . . WOW!  I'm a fan of the romance but then again I know already how that's going to turn out. I can't believe I didn't have it listed in my "books I'm reading". Yet, I'm a person that easily has 20 books with bookmarks in them so it could be missed as not everything I'm reading goes on that list.  Okay sick minds, do you really want to know what nutrituional diet book I'm reading now? It's called The Glucose Revolution. Happy?  And I just finished reading The Low-Blood Sugar Handbook. Why? Because I like to read these kinds of books sometimes.I've been playing my DS a lot. Of course, I haven't been playing TWEWY like I should be. I'm on Day 7 with Joshua there so I have advanced some. I just don't want it to end. I need to just stop goofing off and finish. I have one more week after that day before I get to start all over again, which I will. I've been playing MillionHeir, which I didn't list in my now playing list. Why? Because I didn't.
I'm so addicted to Big Fish games. I blame my friend Jenny. She hooked me on them a little over a year ago. I haven't looked back. In fact, this weekend she gave me Ravenhearst 2. OMG! I loved Ravenhearst so much so I can't wait to hear the rest of the story.Sadly, my PSP, PS2 and GBA have all been on vacation. It's been almost a month for all 3 to have not even been turned on. I was using my PSP to watch anime so I've slacked on finishing a certain series there. It's okay. I only have 25 episodes more to go. And then specials and OVAs and whatever else they want to throw at me to make it take me even longer to finish a series I currently rate as a 6 out of 10. I've never been the type to be able to sit and watch people play a game like chess let alone be able to sit still long enough to finish playing a "real match" myself. I get bored easily. So Hikaru no Go is a cute show but not my thing. Now, Death Note is a series I like to say is like watching a chess match and I love it so maybe I should amend myself. Watching Death Note is like watching wizard's chess . . . much more exciting. It gets a 10 out of 10 from me but that's another story for another blog.February 12 Finally!I'm getting into Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories for real. I loaded up my cure cards because well, I didn't have that many in my deck. Those I had were preminum cards. So if I expected to beat Riku, I do need to be able to heal myself. If only I'd realized that earlier, I would have only had to fight him once.
 Ah well, I don't mind screen time with Riku even if it isn't the true Riku. He still looks and sounds the same. Although, it was quite weird going through the scene on my GBA after having seen it a million times fully animated. I wonder where that one came from? Maybe it's from Final Mix.Anyway, I'm on the 13th floor now Sora side!
I played two rooms and decided to call it a night. I knew there was no way I'd be able to get through ALL of those rooms before my eyes closed shut. If only I'd known my dog would have a rough night, I might have played longer. *yawn* He's fine. He was just fussy last night.I moved along to the next day with Joshua in The World Ends With You. I've been delaying finishing this game because I love it so much. I just fight battle after battle after battle. It's so much fun!
But I have other games waiting on the sidelines so I need to get busy with these. I can't justify buying new games until I finish ones I own. Thank goodness for a 4 day weekend! Yes, I gave myself an extra day off but that's because I have several appointments that day and figured it would just be easier on me. Maybe the next blog will be saying I finished a game . . . yeah right! February 06 Totally motivatedSo I've been playing Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories lately. I've been playing about an hour a day because really that's all I can spare right now. It's a sheer miracle if I roll my PS2 out on the weekends let alone any other time so you can image there's probably not much time for a handheld game either. But that's the glory of handhelds! They can be played in bed while drifting off to sleep. Yes! That's what I do. My friend Tim commented to me that he also loves to play games to relax. The only real key is to save before you fall asleep.
That so doesn't mean I'm not enjoying the game. Oh no! It shows you just how much I like the game. I have the game Return to Castle Wolfenstein. Yeah, I think I'm going to just have to sell that unfinished. I stress out playing that game. People are sneaking up on me, trying to kill me with realistic type graphics. Eek! I'm stressing just thinking about it. But now that I think about it, the original game did that to me too so why did I buy this?
 I remember having fun with it. Ah well.The quick update on CoM is simple. I'm still on the 12th floor Sora side. I'm level 79. I can't raise my HP anymore because I'm maxed. I can't get new sleights because I have them all. That is all that you can receive through leveling. All I can do is increase my CP. That's a good thing though. There's no more having to choose which one to increase. I'm just increasing. The best part though? Yeah, I met up with Riku again.
Everyone, including the guide, has told me how hard Riku is. I'll admit he's tougher than the other 3 times I've played him but he's not that hard. It's probably because I'm so leveled. Although, I haven't defeated him yet. I've gone against him 3 times before I quit for the night. The first time I almost had him. If I'd had more attack cards in my deck and fewer magic cards, he would have been defeated on my first try. Okay! I switched my deck around. Take 2. This time around he and I were both almost out of life when I had to recharge my deck. In that moment, he hit me and I was dead. NO! I only needed to hit him maybe 2 more times and he would have been dead. *sigh*
Okay, let's think about this. What do I need to change to get the edge? I'm so close but one little thing can make the difference. I read the guide. No help. Why did I think it would be at this point? Then, it dawned on me. I need to have another cure or two in my deck so I rearrange again. Crap! My stupid cures are that special color that you're only allowed to use once. Well, no wonder. I can only cure myself my first time through the cards. When loading my deck, I can't see that color. (Seriously can't remember what it's called right now.) Now, I have one cure that isn't special. I almost defeated him again but he still barely beat me.
Save. Time's up. I'm addicted to a J-Drama called Bloody Monday. There was just enough time to watch another episode and go to sleep. I'll go after Riku again the next night. I really don't mind seeing him so much. Maybe I should go hunt down the moogles tonight to see if I can't get a regular high power cure. I have elixirs and such but I don't think they do the same as a cure but maybe I'll experiment with it. I just need to change one thing to get the edge. This is such a puzzle to solve. It's a blast!  February 02 He's so Sly!OMG! I'm blogging again.
 I just have so much going on that I neglected blogging everywhere. I still have a bunch going on but I'm getting my blog back on. So anyway, I finished Sly 2 this weekend. It was a blast. I can't wait to buy the next volume. The final boss cracked me up because I had to partner with my nemesis to take him down. That's right! Inspector Carmelita and Sly "hooked up".
She was cracking me up and any one who would have been watching me play would have been rolling because I was commenting back to her. Of course, my doggie just rolled his eyes at me.  Carmelita was flying a helicopter and told Sly (me) to hop in and man the turrent. Well, as I'm shooting at the big owl, she giving me words of encouragement or yelling at me depending on the case. My favorite was "Shoot the bird not the air, Cooper!" But there were other wonderful ones that need mentioning too like "Learn to aim!" and "I thought you said you could shoot?" The first couple times through, because I had to do it a few times before I got it right, she said, "You're doing it! We're winning!" And as soon as those words were out of her mouth, we died. So I'm doing my commentary back, "Would you stop saying that?!" I'm sure it was quite a sight to see.
But absolutely hands down my favorite part was the end of the ending credits. I love when game makers have a little fun themselves. This is so NOT a spoiler so no worries. In fact, if I knew this were at the end, I'd probably rush a game along to get to it so I could laugh. The last graphics read, "That's it! You've won! Now get up and go outside! We're serious. There's no more to see." (maybe not an exact quote but close enough)
I completed 100% of the game. It was so much fun! I know I'll be pulling that game out multiple times like my Ratchet & Clank and Jak & Daxter games. Naughty Dog owns me. February 01 Square Enix woesNow, before I get into the heart of this ramble, I'm just announcing that my site is public again.
I put it on lockdown after seeing several coworkers do internet searches on fellow coworkers sites and start poking fun at things they were doing. I wanted no part of that nonsense. But now, my real name has been completely removed from this site and it's been a few months since the nonsense. So hopefully all is well again. So on to my woes!
 Recently, Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories came out on the PS2. Being the nut I am for KH, I totally plan to buy this game. I have it already on the GBA but it's a big pain in the rear. I've gotten used to the gameplay. I really have. That's not what's bothering me. My problem is the freaking heartless are being heartless. They won't drop the cards I need to open the special doors. So I fight and fight and then fight some more. Score! I got one of the cards I need. Oh crap! Which world was it again that room was in?
 I really should write these things down.Tonight, I was all excited I got one of those coveted cards! WOO HOO!!! I race back to the previous world because I remembered that's where I needed it. Yeah, I failed to remember there were 2 cards I needed dropped to get into that room. DAMN IT!!! And to clear things up, it's not the special cards like the Key to Rewards that I need. Oh no! I have plenty of those puppies. I need like a red 1 and a blue 2. You know, specific color/number cards.
Well, it's okay because tonight I did manage to advance my storyline. I'm on Destiny Islands and the doors are no longer blocked. I guess I got whatever it was I needed to do to get them unblocked. I couldn't believe I had made it all the way to the 12th floor and my passages were ALL blocked. I swear this game is out to get me. But I just had some much needed Riku time so I'm good with the game again.
This is all my Riku loving friend's fault. She convinced me this week that regardless of how painful the gameplay can be that the story is totally worth playing through at least once. She's so right! I know it'll be her fault that I get into Final Fantasy games too. After having just watched Advent Children, she decided to play FF7. Afterwards, she watched Advent Children again. Guess what I'm watching now? Guess what I haven't played yet?  I swear I will literally hit the floor laughing if I manage to convince her to buy a PSP. She wants to play Crisis Core but that's the only game she's interested in on the PSP so she won't buy the system for that. I totally understand. That's exactly how I am. I swear this girl is me from 10 years ago. (Yes, I'm 10 years older than her.)And this brings me to my other SE woe. I ordered my strategy guide from Amazon a while ago for Crisis Core. The estimated delivery date was Monday, Jan. 26th. I received an email on the 21st saying it was shipped. Here it is on the 31st (officially 2/1 now) and no sign of my package. The tracking only states that it left the warehouse in Atlanta on the 21st. So where is my package? *grumble grumble* January 14 Lavi's Tribute from my D.Gray-man obsessionI had to pick an AMV from my latest obsession - D.Gray-man. Okay, honestly, I didn't think I was going to care for this series. In fact, I was really hestitate to start watching it. But I always like to give things a chance and it had been sitting on my HD for almost 2 years. I was always dling it but just never watching it. It was time to clear my HD. OMG! This series started out as just interesting. It wasn't bad. It was entertaining me. I really liked Allen. Kanda was kind cool for the emo he is. Yeah, I think this series will be okay. It'll be one of those that I like but never watch again. I probably would only recommend someone watching it if they asked me directly about the series. I was so wrong. While I won't claim it's the greatest series ever or that it will change your life, I do recommend it to those wanting an adventurous ride through an alternative telling of the turn of the century (around 1900). And let's be blunt, I don't like the emo in this series. I don't mind him but he's far from my favorite. Lavi aka Bookman Jr. is absolutely my favorite character hands down. I love his pairing with Lenalee and am happy to know (through research) that that is the official pairing. Finally, I need to mention the video I chose. First, I love the music. It's one of my favorite groups. This song in particular has a very special meaning to me as a special someone and I sang it together . . . very poorly but we did it. Talking about YouTube - Lavi Tribute- Bring me to life January 04 Because of youSo I went to YouTube tonight looking for something in particular and wound up getting side-tracked on music videos. I found this nice one regarding Kyou Kara Maou and decided to add it. Actually, it contains part of what I originally went to YouTube for. Talking about YouTube - because of you December 09 Trying to get motivatedI decided to add a Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories video from the PS2 game on my site to help motivate me to finish the game. Now, I know I won't be playing it until January after the horrible weekend I had. My dog got sick again and we spent the whole day at the hospital. He's recovering nicely now and we both finally got some much needed sleep last night. I was running on 3 hours of sleep but not consequectively. I'm so happy he's feeling better but that was money I wasn't planning on spending at Christmas time so my Christmas fund is currently on life support. And after I did so well building it up too. Oh well, it went to an excellent cause as the best Christmas present I could ever get is having my little one healthy, happy and with me for the holidays. December 08 I need to focas more.I do this all the time. I've never happy unless I'm doing 50 things at once. You think I'm joking. Then you better think again. I thrive on chaos and pressure but I hate chaos and pressure. Yeah, I'm crazy. I admit that freely. I'm not however insane. There is a fine line between them that I refuse to cross.
I adore The World Ends With You so much. Everyone was raving to me how much I'd like it since I love Kingdom Hearts. Heck, the cover even reminds me of KH. And since it's by Square Enix, sure, I'll give it a try. The first copy I purchased however almost didn't make it to the now owner. I bought it as a gift for someone but had a very hard time letting it go. Sometimes it sucks liking the same things as your friends as I tend to want the same stuff. It would have felt weird buying 2 at once so I opted to wait for mine. I was good, with that gift anyway, I passed it along. I'm so happy to hear the new owner loves the game as much or even more than me. She can't put it down. I'm going crazy doing every little task in it so I let it sit for some days on purpose to let my pins evolve.
But there's another reason too . . . I can't put Secret Agent Clank down either. This is the first game in the Ratchet & Clank series that I've ever tried to play without getting the stragedy guide. I think I will look for the guide in the near future, let me get through the holiday madness first. I'm impressed I think I'm doing so well. I've found a couple of platinum bolts on my own. Usually I have to consult guides to figure out where they all are. I found one but couldn't get to it. Did I get upset? No, I know how these games work. You frequently find things you can't do until later in the game. You have to acheive something else first. In this case, I needed to get Clank some booster shoes. Once he got those, I headed back to that planet and that room. Jump, boost, I'm there!
Another one I stumbled on because I was trying to be stealth. If the guards saw me, it was game over. One turned around on me and I ran . . . right into the bolt. AWESOME! And tonight I played a little but got turned around. I didn't know which way I'd come from or which way I needed to go. I had 3 choices. The one I chose made me pick a lock. Okay, no problem. Voila! And there's another platinum bolt! Cool!Ah but all this Secret Agent Clank playing has me really sad I'm not playing Daxter. I started playing that game and couldn't put it down. The only reason it's out of my PSP was to make sure SAC worked. I had planned to put Crisis Core in next to make sure it worked as well but . . . did you read the paragraph prior? I'm so happy Buzz was a quick play. I played it for about an hour every night before bed. I completed 75% of the game in about a week. After that, I had bought the other games and figured the trivia game didn't have to go to 100% or I could just finish playing it later. It's not like there's a story to learn on that one.
All of this however has me totally neglecting my PS2. For the upteenth weekend in a row, I didn't pull the PS2 out. I played it last weekend but I didn't do the whole setup of my gaming chair, etc. I just sat on the floor and went for it. I'm playing Sly 2 on that. I found all my clue bottles in the first round and managed to complete that chapter only to have the game tell me I was only 4% finished. Are you kidding me? Do you know how long it took for me to get that far? Oh wait! That's right! I suck. Well maybe if I would just play one game at a time I wouldn't forget which controls I needed to do a stealth move. It's Clank that you hit the square button for his stealth move. It's the triangle button for Sly.
Of course, all of this is happening when I should be focased on playing Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories. I really do like the game. It's not as fun as the first or second games, even though wouldn't CoM be the second . . . Anyway, any time I play a game that has Sora, Cloud or Riku in it - even only slightly - is a fun play. All of my gaming systems will be traveling with me in 2 weeks so hopefully I'll make some progress. I would say before the new year but hey. I know that would be lying.
So I'll just do my best and see what happens. No sense rushing the fun stuff. Now that I think of it, it's really my gaming that gone crazy. I've become very focased in cel buying. Yeah sure, there's a screw up or slip every now and then but it's a huge improvement over even just a year ago. My reading has become more disciplined as I decided to finish up a few books I've had bookmarks in for years. Yes, years later I can pick up a book at it's bookmark and remember everything I read prior. It may suck sometimes to have dsylexia but it's really cool to have a near photographic memory.
Also I focased on the fact that I'm ready for a relationship again. I took a long break for some personal reasons. I feel I have atoned for everything so I'm ready to hop back into action. Yeah, apparently I'm running the same ragged course. Maybe I really didn't learn anything during my break. There are currently 4 guys seeking my attention. Why did I think it would be easy to settle on one now? Is it because I'm older I didn't think I'd have to worry about choices? Who knows?! And I've always said I'd love a guy to be slightly older than me, yeah, not happening. All 4 are younger than me.  They range from 1 year to 13 years younger. Oh crap! I never thought I'd ever go for anyone more than 5 years my younger but 13! Calm down and focas. Maybe I should just take a break again. December 03 The quick rantNow is the time for a quick rant because I need to get this out. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?!?! ENOUGH!!! I just don't get it. I really don't.
I didn't do anything this Thanksgiving holiday. I didn't travel. I didn't go Black Friday shopping. I didn't have anyone come visit. I didn't go to any parties. Get the picture? I didn't do anything. And I had the greatest holiday weekend ever! I loved it! It was so much fun and so relaxing. I actually finished a book. I did some cooking. I played some videogames. I watched some anime. I watched some movies on DVD. I snuggled under the blankets with my dog. I played with my dog . . . a lot. I talked on the phone. I text messaged. I played a MMORPG with a friend of mine. That was awesome! I had a general great time. So why? Why do I keep getting people giving me those sad looks that I didn't have a traditional Thanksgiving? I keep getting the "I'm sorrys". I don't want pity. I told you I loved my time off. I'm not just saying that either. I really don't give a crap about Thanksgiving. It's a freaking food holiday.
I think I'm just still surrounded by a bunch of people who don't like themselves. I thought I rid myself of most of those people but I guess not. I don't like most people. People in general stress me out. So if I had a party to go to, I would stress the whole time up to the party and the whole time at the party. I'm really good at putting on the happy face as I know it's just something I have to get through.
I was talking to Brian last night. It started out as a conversation about being afraid of heights. He made a comment about not being able to be too close to Julie's windows since she lives on the 11th floor in her building. I simply stated back that I couldn't either. It was worse when she was on the 17th floor. Then Brian realized, "I didn't see you at Julie's on Thanksgiving."
"Nope, you didn't."
"Did you go somewhere?"
"Uh, we aren't friends anymore."
Pause. Then the dreaded, "Oh I'm so sorry."
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"That's okay. It's been over a year. It's no big deal. I'm long over that."
Sad eyes look back at me so I felt obligated to continue saying that we just went separate ways. It happens. I wish her the best but just have nothing to do with me. I have no ill will towards her. Although, I could say I've got some venom but that's reserved for the people closest to me. But that's all basically in the immaturity of how everything went down. Looking back I would have handled it differently to be an ass because I'm being blamed as the ass now even though "what I did" was literally nothing. Ah well, you live and you learn.
So the basic bottom line is I must be a big time liar. No one seems to believe me when I tell people I'm fine with things. I admit I still have venom when it comes to Julie but in a normal conversation you're allowed to mention her. Tim thanked me for that. He mentioned my name to her and she about flew off the handle. Well, I guess there's venom the other way too. LOL And of course, apparently anyone who claims to have had an awesome weekend but you find out they were alone has to be lying.
Whatever!*feeling a little better now that came out* Quickest blog everConsidering I haven't finished KH: Chain of Memories for the GBA, it's easy to say that I won't be getting the PS2 version until next year. And if by some miracle it appears under my Christmas tree, it shall remain wrapped until the GBA version is completed. I'm so sad I didn't make my personal deadline. Will I be mad at myself for long? No. I'm over it now. November 16 CrazyCrazy. Yeah, that about describes this past week. Crazy. Lot of ups and downs - pluses and minuses. Just crazy. On the work front, I'm slammed now because it's 4th quarter. We have doubled workloads due to the holidays. We're so happy to get the holidays off but our work still has to get done with some very specific deadlines. No room for flexibility. We are also gearing up for a new structure. I've known about this since maybe May so it's no surprise. The company just released the information regarding the new structure of "higher ups". This is the news everyone has been waiting for. We all wanted to know who our new bosses are going to be. Figures! I get the gung-ho one. She's not officially my boss until March 30th but already she wants me to write a bio about myself and get it turned in to her by this Friday. Um . . . I'm on vacation. When I come back, I'll be slammed. Just when am I going to find the time to do this? You see when I take vacation time during the holiday rush, I triple my workload when I return. Cut to the end of my week. One of my coworkers died of a heart-attack. His viewing is today. His funneral is tomorrow. RIP, Jim. Now for some good news. I have 3 count them 3 working toilets in my house again. Eric has been crazy about the Mustang shop he just found in the area. He's been going practically every week and tricking out his Mustang. Since I have a Mustang too, I should go there. Dude, I'm not a car person. This is not a car I plan to have for much longer. Chill! Of course not! So after a month of you have to go, he tells me he's going Saturday and he'll swing by and pick me up. I said fine as long as he fixes my bathrooms. He agreed and I was shocked. On an even more personal note, I'm bored with my current boyfriend situation. If something doesn't change soon, I'll be making something change. Anyway, on to the music video. I got completely hooked on Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni recently. It was suggested to me for Halloween and I understand why. CREEPY! I currently have 2 friends hooked on it. Season 2 just literally finished dling. I'm so excited. But it's dark out now so I won't start watching it until tomorrow. I learned quickly I can't watch this series in the dark. I watched 3 episodes and tried to go to bed. Yeah! That was laughable. So my only true warning is the video IS GRAPHIC. The story is about several murders. You know at the beginning of the series who is dead but you don't know how or why or by whom. The series just gives you a lot of possibilities as to who might have done it and how. It's not until the end that you can kind of figure out what exactly was going on. That is NOT reflected in the video. Enjoy! November 02 All this time & I'm back on the island again!Well, I guess they don't call it Destiny Island for nothing.
 That's right! I'm on the 12th floor in Chain of Memories. I've defeated Riku for the 3rd time with ease. Yeah, I'm getting little cocky about it now. Watch him kick my ass the next time we meet.  While it's quite an achievement that I made it to the 12th floor, I have a major problem with the floor. The doors won't open.
 Why? That's because I've skipped things in the previous levels because I didn't have the right cards. Now, I'm being forced back to "level" and pick up those missing items. So how much do you think I laughed when I read a little bit about the upcoming 4th battle against Riku. You wanna talk cocky?! The guide suggests that your HP be about 400. LMAO My HP? Currently 500 but I can't move forward to battle Riku so I expect it to go higher before I meet up with him again.If I weren't actually having fun with this game now, I'd be crying and throwing it across the room. The game locked up on me while I was battling Riku the 3rd time. At first I thought he'd hit me with some special move until I realized he was jumping all over the place changing cards, charging, etc. I was just standing there. No matter what I did Sora didn't move. Luckily, I was at full health when it happened. Riku knocked a good chunk away before I hit the GBA and got moving again.
Playing this game has really psyched me for the PS2 version coming in December! Can't wait!  October 24 It's a miracle!I can't believe it! The heartless finally gave pity on me a dropped a #1 card.
 I was able to advance my storyline! YAY! Of course, by the time this happened, I was tired and ready to go to sleep so I didn't go that far. I fought Maleficent's dragon with ease. Then Donald, Goofy and Sora talked about Riku for a moment. And finally I watched some members of Organization XIII talk and Namine is there. I don't like Namine but that's a whole different rant.Tenth floor baby! I can't believe I finally got there! I feel like I need to go out celebrating tonight. If only it weren't so dreary out. We're 20 degrees below normal temps and it's raining. RAIN! Yet another miracle! Of course, that's making me colder so I guess I'm cracking out the sweater for tonight. It's sucks that I've started coughing really bad and my nose is runny and sneezy. I heard the reports about the flu starting up. NO! I don't want to get sick! Taking my vitamins now.
Well, there is one good thing if I were to be sick. I wouldn't feel guilty about not doing housework and playing my videogames.  October 19 Let's give some love to the PSP!How did I ever go so long without my PSP? It has been awesome! I've played with it probably every night. I finally got dls to play on it so I'm clearing hard drive space left and right off my computer. Well, that and I realized I dl'd season 2 of a series that season 1 is no longer currently available. Purge! No reason to keep that one. I'll try that series later.
Anyway, the biggest complaint I've heard about the PSP is the battery life. It hasn't been a problem for me. I know we're all spoiled by the GBA and DS having 13 hours while the PSP comes in at a lowly 6 hours. But as long as you know that, what's the problem? Besides, I found a great way to charge it without even realizing you're charging it. It's called transferring your dls.
That's right! Every time I transfer a dl over, my PSP is hooked up to my computer. It just naturally grabs a charge from my computer. I noticed this when I was transferring something and saw I only had two bars. By the time I finished transferring everything I wanted to, I was fully charged. Awesome!
 But I really want to talk about my games.I had received Daxter a while ago. I started playing it and loved it. Of course this was pre-memory stick so I didn't play long. After I got the memory stick, I've just gone crazy using all sorts of other features on my PSP such as the MP3 player and the web. I had to try them out.
I went back to play Daxter and still loved it. It reminds me so much of Jak 2. Well, it should! It's Daxter's story leading up to him hooking up with Jak in Jak 2. They are separated at the end of Jak & Daxter.  Well, kind of . . . really it's more at the end of Jak & Daxter they cut away to credits. The beginning credits of Jak 2 they show you the very next scene. So if you've played both, you know what's going to happen after you've finished the first one. But Jak 3 . . . let's just say I nailed who the "mystery guest" was way before they revealed them. I wonder how many more people did? Seriously probably only a handful because I know how crazy I think.  So back to my PSP, I always state I won't get a system without having at least 3 games I'll play on it. Well, my PSP came with Star Wars Battlefront. And for as big of a Star Wars fan that I am, I haven't played it yet. Shocker!
I ran out and bought Crisis Core and Buzz. Have I played Crisis Core, a game I've been drooling over for months now? No! I immediately put Buzz in. I love this game! It's so much fun! I'm already 60% completed. It's a short trivia game with tons of fun. You can play by yourself or with others using just your PSP or multi PSPs. I love that they have different options like that. I know this game will be played a lot over Christmas. I'll be playing a Simpsons game as well as Eternal Sonata as well as many others I'm sure. Hey, it's what my "non-gamer" brother and I like to do. He has an X-Box360 and bought Eternal Sonata just for me to play when I come visit because I said it was the only X-Box exclusive game I wanted to play.Bottom line is that I made a good decision when I decided to say screw paying another bill off and let's buy that PSP. You know, since I locked down this site some, I have no problems revealing that I'm extremely happy to be stepping more and more away from cels. They are beautiful and I do love some of them very dearly but with games I receive a lot more than just a few minutes of beauty. I get hours of mind blowing gameplay. Anyone who's ever known me well has always known I love to play a good game - board games, card games, trivia games, console games, you name it.  October 07 More Kingdom Hearts newsYes, call me crazy. I'm playing 2 Kingdom Hearts games at the same time. It's okay. I already know the story as I read all about Chain of Memories before beginning KH2. And I've defeated KH2 twice before this time. I'm at the final bosses and just "have to" finish up the remaining elements of my journal and do some leveling before seeing "the end".
Well, with all the buzz about KH3 coming out exclusively for the PS3, I've just been riding a KH cloud. I've been checking all the screenshots for KH358/2. I can't wait! I don't know how main a character he's going to be but Riku is in it. It makes sense since he and Roxas fought each other at one point and this is the story of Roxas.But back to Jiminy's Damn Journal. I remember cursing so hard when I first played the game as I thought I was doing well until the entire journal opens up and you find out just how much you suck. Well, I guess I kept that in mind this time around. As I met up with Riku and did all the cut scenes prior to the final door, I dreaded checking my journal but did anyway. Not bad! I have 5 worlds where something needs to be done. Most of those only need 1 thing done. I'm practically finished with it. Of course, one of the things that needs to be completed is meeting Sephiroth.
 I've defeated him before and I WILL do it again. It just might take me 20 tries to do so.  But what made laugh was I was at level 61. All I remember thinking when the journal opened up was, "Damnit! What am I going to do when trying to level?" Completing the journal was a great excuse to go back through the worlds and level while trying to complete various tasks. If you don't have the tasks to complete, then what?Of course, I'm screwed waiting for the Final Form to activate too. I will not enter the final bosses without it. And it will be completely leveled too before I dare enter. I don't remember it taking that long to activate but we'll see. A certain someone I know was really complaining recently about how long it took. Did it really take that long or was she just being impatient?
 I'm level 67 now without Final Form but I haven't done that much with my drives lately. I was focusing on my Summons as I hate using those with a passion and realized they aren't leveled. I was playing a lot in the tournaments too. I love when I get both the try again and the "so many points" for the journal at once. It really saves on time and frustration. I just Stitch out the first couple of rounds and then stay alive until the end. It works for me.
As for Chain of Memories, I have made progress there too. Finally, I got one of the number cards I was lacking. I believe it was a blue 2. Now, I'm screwed looking for a green 1. Grr! I would think the special cards would be harder to get. So I'm bascially running around hoping that during one of my fights someone will drop just the right card. It's very frustrating. Now you can see clearly why it's taking me so long to finish this game. And I'm just crazy enough to buy KH:CoM when it comes out of the PS2 later this year.
I believe I'm level 75 with about 450HP and around 850CP. Watch me top out at level 99 and still be on the 9th floor.  That would be the scream heard around the world. Until then, my goal is to finish CoM by Christmas-time. It's a little tough to do right now as I'm wanting to play with my new toys, The World Ends With You on the DS and everything there is PSP. On top of which, my mom wants to borrow a book I'm reading so I need to be done with it at Christmas-time too. I have about 100 pages left. I hope I make it.September 30 I needed a good Riku moment on this bad day.The Riku fangirl in me was laughing her ass off while wiping drool off her chin and fanning herself. WARNING! Halfway through this hysterical video is spoiler footage of the final boss in Kingdom Hearts 2! Watch at your own risk! YouTube - Riku On The Discovery Channel |
I found a "handyman". He told me anything I needed fixed to just give him a call and he'd come out as soon as he could. In return, I take him to dinner. Fair enough. Of course, we couldn't do dinner last night and I didn't feel like it tonight so it'll happen on Monday. I hate dragging crap like this out. I planned a 4 day weekend to hole up in my house and relax. Now, I'm having to run all over the place. Looks like Tuesday will be my only real day of rest. |
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